Coldest Story Ever Told ♥

He dropped me off my condo and when I was about to enter my room, he grabbed me once more and hugged me.

“Jungsoo, stop doing this.”

“What do you mean?”

“Don’t get me wrong. What I mean is stop making me get used to this. Seeing you every day, being with you every day. ”

“I won’t stop being like this to you, so why worry? I told you, we will make this thing work.”

I have no words to say. I just hugged him as tight as I could, because I know, time is running out. He suddenly pushed me inside the room and shut the door using his foot. He then pushed me at the wall. What is he trying to do now?

“Yaaaaaaah!! What are you doing?”

“Nothing. I just want to see what your reaction will be. Are you scared of me? Hah!”

“Stop joking like that.”

“Okay fine. Its 2:30am, you should go to bed now.”

“You should go home now. I won’t sleep until I received a call from you that you’re home.”

“It’s just 2 streets from here. Now go sleep. I will only go out of this room when you’re sleeping already.”

“Then why not sleep with me, instead?”

“Are you serious?”

“No.”

“But I’d love to. Okay now let’s go to bed.”

“Hey! I’m just joking!” I was shouting while he was dragging me to my room.

“Now let me borrow a pajama and a shirt.”

“Stop it now Jungsoo, go home!!!”

“I mean it; I will sleep here with you.”

“NO!!!”

“But why?”

“Because I want to. Just sleep and give me a pj!”

“NO!”

“Why are you shouting like that? Do you hate me for liking it to be with you all of the time?”

“That’s not my point. It’s just that it’s awkward to let you sleep here with just the 2 of us.”

“But we spent a week together already, right?”

“It feels weird. Go home!!!”

“NO.”

“Yaaahhh! Go home!!!”

“In one condition.”

“What’s that?”

“You have to be with me the whole day tomorrow.”

“But I have a schedule to deal with. I have a practice with the girls!”

“That’s why just let me sleep with you.”

“UGH! Fine, but sleep on the floor.”

“Hey!!!”

“Any protests? Here’s the shirt and pajama. Now go change and sleep on the floor.”

“You’re rude.”

“But you still love me don’t you?”

He just stared at me and gave me the “whatever, Neul Soo” look.

I lied down on my bed and wait for him to come back. I placed my comforter at the floor so that at least he will feel a bit comfortable. I mean it, he should sleep on the floor.

“Yah! Can you sleep the whole morning to see me like this, lying my back on your floor?”

“What do you want me to do? Let you sleep with me? My bed is not as big as yours!”

“But please?”

“I’ll sleep now.”

I just turned my back so that he will no longer ask more questions. He’s really insisting until I can finally feel him at my back. Aish~

“Yah!!! I told you to sleep on the floor!” I shouted as I turned my back facing him.

“But you love me, right? Just let me sleep, I’m tired.”

“But..”

“Just hug me, I’m cold.”

I didn’t say a single word. I just did. He closed his eyes and told me. “Good night, princess. I love you, and thank you.”

“Aisssh. Fine. Good night, I love you too.”

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“I’m here at Neul Soo’s condo. Why? My sched for today will start at 9am. It’s just 6am. I’m going home now.”

I can hear Jungsoo talking on the phone. I guess he’s talking to one of his dongsaengs.

“Hey, you’re leaving now?”

“Yeah. What time are you going to practice with the girls?”

“From 10 am – 6pm. Why?”

“Good. I’ll fetch you there around 6:30.”

“What again? Where are we going?”

“Let’s just have dinner together. Okay? I’ll call you.”

“Oh, okay.”

“I’m leaving now. See you later, dear.”

Then he just gave me a sweet kiss on my cheek. I grabbed his hands while I was still sitting on my bed.

“What’s wrong?”

“Don’t ever hate me. Okay?”

“What are you trying to say?”

“Just don’t hate me.”

Then he just smiled and pulled me up and gave me a hug. “I love you.”
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When Jungsoo left, I immediately took my calendar and encircle the day of my flight to America. I need to tell Jungsoo everything. I mean, I need to tell him as soon as possible. I hung the calendar at my door and make sure to look at it everytime I go in and out of the room. This will serve as a countdown.


JUNGSOO’S POV

*Jungsoo’s POV = Italized

While I’m outside the door when I reached our dorm, I can hear Kibum, Donghae and Hyukjae on the other side of the door. I can feel that they’re talking about someone, but I’m not sure who it is. So I just stood outside and try to listen.

KB: Yah! Hyung, how did you know about that?

EH: I was outside the room when you guys are talking about it. So I heard it.

DH: And he told me everything. He’s talkative, right?

EH: Hey, are you trying to make Kibum mad at me?

DH: No, I’m just telling him the truth.

KB: Eunhyuk hyung! What did she told you? When is she planning to tell him the truth?

EH: I don’t know either.

DH: She didn’t even tell me when. I’m worried now.

EH: When is she leaving anyway? She’s going to America, right?

KB: That’s what I know too. And as far as I know, she will be leaving on December 16.

DH: Really? That’s exactly 2 months from now.

I wonder who they are talking about. How come I’m late when it comes to news!

KB: So what are we going to do?

DH: We cannot do anything. Let her tell hyung!

EH: Exactly. Let them talk. Besides, it’s their problem anyway. We’re just here to support them both, and help them.

I suddenly got confused and I opened the door.

“Yah! Who are you guys talking about?”

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He’s holding my hand while we’re on our way to his car. He opened the door for me and I saw a bouquet of flowers on my seat. I just turned my back and looked at him, and he replied with his sweet smile.

I am really happy, and I just want to forget the fact that in 2 months time, everything that’s happening now will no longer be visible.

“Hey, where are we heading to? Tell me.”

“Let’s have dinner first.”

“Then?”

“Just wait.”
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“We’re here.” He just told me.

I kept on asking him where we were until we entered the place. It’s really pretty and quiet.

“Yah, how come there are no people around?”

“Because I paid for the whole place for tonight.”

“Eh?”

“Aish. Just, seat here. “

Then he sat in front of me. The place is really beautiful and clean. Really, there are no people around except for the 2 of us.

“We need to talk, but eat first. Okay?”

“About?” With my eyes ready to overflow with tears. I’m afraid he knew about my departure.

“Hey, what’s wrong?”

Then he stood up and knelt down on my side.

“Tell me, what’s bothering you?

“I’m just, happy.”

“Then why do your eyes look so scared?”

“Nothing, I’m just tired, I lack sleep. That’s why. Now stand up and go back to your seat.”

He asked me to stand up and then he holds my face, both hands was as cold as ice, “Please be happy, isn’t this enough that we’re together to make you smile? I’m here. I told you, I won’t leave you.”

Then he hugged me and I can feel his lips touching my ears and he whispered, “I love you. And hopefully, you will be with me forever.”

Tears suddenly filled my eyes and he wiped it for me. “Let’s eat, we’re going somewhere else after this.”

“Where are we going again?”
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We talked about the other members after eating. I can see how happy he is when it comes to the boys. It’s pretty obvious that his relationship to his dongsaengs are really great.

“Yah, get ready. We’re leaving.”

“You always keep me from waiting where we’re going. Now tell me, where are we going now?”

Then he just stared at me and gave me a kiss on my right cheek.
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While on our way to the place, I was so tired and I can feel my body getting weak. Then I fell asleep.

He woke me up and I was actually shocked to see we’re both on a dark place where there are only orange trees around. He told me to go down and wait for him at the bench near the gate for he will just park his car.

As he arrived, he grabbed my hand and went to a place where we can view the whole place.

“Why did you bring me here?”

“Can you see those orange trees?”

“Duh. Neh, why?”

“My love for you is somehow related to these beautiful trees.”

“Eh?”

“I will only stop loving you if these trees bear an apple.”

“Yah~ that’s impossible.”

“That’s exactly what I’m trying to say! It’s impossible for me to stop loving you.”

“…..”

Then he hugged me tight. I can feel the warmth and I just knew that a tear suddenly feel from my eye, again. I don’t want him to see me this way because he might get worried and confused why I’m acting weird towards him.

“I hate seeing you cry. What’s wrong?”

“It’s just that, I don’t want this to end. Everything in this world has its finish line. And we cannot escape from that fact.”

“Why did you say so?”

“That’s what everybody says.”

“So you do believe on those lies?”

“But, I think that’s for real.”

“Let’s prove them wrong. We will be together, forever. No one can grab you from me. They cannot take you away from me!! Do you understand?” He said that with all the anger on his voice.

I just stared at him and let my tears flow.

“I’m sorry. I’m just.. scared. I don’t know what to do when a specific day comes and you will tell me you have to leave me. Please don’t do that, I don’t think I’ll be able to handle such situation.”

“I love you.” I just told him those simple words that I know can ease the pain he’s feeling.

“He grabbed me at my waist, his right arm surrounding my body while his left hand holding my face. “I will love you even if takes a million years. And I know that my love for you won’t fade. I know I sound so crazy, but trust me.”

Then I can feel his left cheek near my right cheek. He whispered and I can hear that he kept on repeating my name over and over again.

“Why, Jungsoo? What’s wrong?”

Then he looked at me. “My only problem is to how I can make you mine, forever.”

Then he slowly kissed me at my forehead, his lips sliding down to my nose. Then I looked up at him, and then he kissed me with both his hands holding me tighter. I wrapped around my arms around him, and so that night ended just like that.

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Days have passed and now it’s time to go back to real life. We need to go back to Seoul because the boys have schedules for the following day.

While fixing my things before we leave, Kibum entered the room.

“Hey, Jungsoo hyung went out for a while he’s with Kangin. Can we talk for a while?”

“Oh sure. What’s the matter? Is it about Eebum?”

“No. It’s about you.”

“Oppa, you’re scaring me. What’s wrong with me?”

“You know that your bestfriend have lots of story to tell. But she told me this thing that I kept on thinking about since last night.”

“….”

“She told me you’re leaving.”

“Oppa…”

“I don’t need to ask you if it’s true or not. Because I know it’s a fact. I have no problems about that, but the thing here is, hyung loves you so much and he told me that he doesn’t know what to do if that day comes. The day that you and him will have to be separated.”

“I want to tell him everything since before, but I don’t have enough courage to tell him as soon as now.”

“So what are you planning to do? And when are you planning to tell him everything?”

I cried.

“Hey, I’m not mad at you. I’m sorry if I’m doing this. I love my hyung so much and I don’t want his world to disappear all of a sudden. We talk about you all the time and I can feel how he value your relationship. I want to save that relationship too. But if you will continue this, I know this won’t work at all. Neul Soo, you can always count on me. I’m here to help, not to blame you.”

“I’m sorry.”

“Yah, come here.” Then Kibum oppa hugged me and told me, “You will get through this. Just, tell him everything. Soon, Neul Soo. Soon.”

Then he let go of me. I can hear Kangin’s voice outside the door.

“Yah! I’m back.” Jungsoo shouted happily.

“Hyung! So how’s the beach?” Kibum asked him.

“Oh it’s really beautiful. Yah, Neul Soo. Why does your face looks a bit.. did you cry?”

“Oh, not really.”

“Hey, tell me. What’s going on? Yah, Kibum! What have you done to my princess?”

“Oh, no. Kibum just came in before you went in. He actually saw me like this already. I just miss my family. It’s no big deal.” Then Jungsoo hugged me and told me, “Hey, I’m here. I will never leave you.”

Then I can see Kibum’s stare. It’s as if he’s telling me to tell Jungsoo everything.

“Hey, I’ll be back. I’ll just go check my car.” Jungsoo said.

“Okay. Be back at once.” I answered him.

“Neul Soo, if you need help, remember I’m here okay? But remember what we’ve talked about. Please.”

“Oppa, I’ll call you often. Thank you for your help.”

“Okay then. See you later.”


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“Hey, are you okay?” Jungsoo approached me while I was standing next to his car.

“What will you do if we go our separate ways?”

“I know that won’t happen because no matter what, I won’t let that happen. Do you get me? Now get in.”

I can see from his eyes how scared he was, or should I say how hatred filled his eyes. I need to tell him everything sooner. Besides, I’m leaving for a reason. I think he will understand.

While on our way to Seoul, he suddenly stopped the car at the side street.

“What’s wrong?”

“Why did you ask me that question?”

“Uh…”

“Enough. I don’t want to hear it. Besides, you promise me you won’t leave me.”

Then he drove off.

We went to their dorm first. Jungsoo took a shower upon arriving their place. So while I was sitting at the sofa, I saw Hyukjae pushing Donghae to me. I know there’s something going on.

“You lost the bet. You go and ask her.” Hyukjae told Hae. I can hear their murmurs from where I’m seated.

“But I don’t want her to get mad at me.”

“She’s a good person. You know that. Besides, what’s wrong with asking a question? Go now, go!!”

Then I can see Donghae approaching.

“Neul Soo.”

“Eh? What’s wrong oppa?” I pretended that I didn’t hear them talking.

“Would you mind if I ask you a serious question?”

“What’s that?”

“Is it..Is it true that you’re leaving?”

“Aish! Shhh…..”

“Oh, I’m sorry.” Then he started whispering, then Hyukjae seated beside me as well.

“Neul Soo. Don’t do this to us. I mean, to hyung.” Hyukjae told me.

“Listen, it’s not that I want to leave. It’s simply because I need to.”

“But.. how.. what will happen to hyung?”

“Don’t ask me that please. I don’t know what will happen to me, to him and to everyone either.”

Then Jungsoo went out of the shower. “Yah, what are you guys doing there? Are you people talking about me?”

“No hyung, we’re asking Neul Soo what she wants for dinner.”

“Oh, don’t worry. I will take her somewhere tonight.”

“Eh? Where are we going?” I asked him.

“Don’t ask. I will not answer you. Just, get dressed.”


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I put on my prettiest dress I have with me. I didn’t go to my dorm yet, he just told me to do so. So I did. I really don’t want to come for I’m really scared what might happen that same night. I don’t consider this as a date, since I don’t know where we’re going and what are we going to do.

I went outside and saw Jungsoo waiting for me. He just smiled at me when he saw me in that black dress I wore.

“Hey princess, let’s go.”

“Where are we going?”

“I told you I won’t answer that question. Just come with me, you trust me, right?”

“Of course.”

“Then let’s go. Yah, Eunhyukie, cook ramen for Donghae! He’s craving for that since last night!”

“Why don’t you buy me ramen instead, hyung?” Donghae exclaimed.

“I will be home late. Don’t wait for me. Go to sleep.”

“But I don’t want Hyukjae’s ramen. It doesn’t taste good!”

“Then ask Ryeowook to cook for you.”

“He’s out. He’s with Yeon Sung!”

“Why are you doing this to me now?” Hyukjae asked Donghae with his pouted lips.

“Aish!! Cook for yourself. We’re leaving.” Jungsoo shouted.

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I woke up and saw Jungsoo on the phone. I took a seat and watch him while he’s laughing and joking around with the person he’s talking to. Then he saw me on the bed yawning, and then he hung up.

“Good morning, my sunshine!”

“Eh?”

“Nah, how’s your sleep?” Then he kissed me on my forehead.

“Oh, it’s fine. Who are you talking to?”

“It’s Kibum. He’s telling me a story about what happened to him and Eebum last night.”

“WHAT DO YOU MEAN? SOMETHING HAPPENED? TELL ME.”

“Hey, calm down. Eebum and Hye Min stayed with Kibum and Siwon last night. But the girls decided to sleep together and so did Siwon and Kibum. Kibum just told me that your bestfriend kept on shouting since she’s scared of lightning, just like me.”

“Oh. That’s all? Uh?”

“Yes. Come on, let’s go down now. Let’s have breakfast.”

I changed my clothes and washed my face. Then I saw him outside the bathroom, waiting for me.

“Yah!” Then he grabbed my hand and asked, “Are you happy you’re with me?”

“Eh, I don’t have any reasons to feel sad every time I’m with you.”

“Good.”

“Why?”

“Because I just want to make sure you feel the same way.”

That day turned out to be a normal one. We ate breakfast, lunch and dinner with everyone. Before going to sleep, while I was at the terrace looking for some fresh air, Jungsoo suddenly hugged me from the back.

“Please don’t ask me to let go.”

“What’s the matter?”

“I’m just scared.”

“Scared of?”

“That what we have now will come to an end.”

“Hey, stop thinking about those things. We’ve met for a reason, and it’s up to us to make this connection we have now to last.”

“I know. And you will keep the promise right?”

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I am afraid that he really means what he told me before, that I will not be able to see him again if I leave him. Honestly, I am about to leave Korea 2 months from now. I need to go to America to continue studying. I’ve sent already my application form and I’m just waiting for their response. I’m pretty confident that I will be accepted since this is my 2nd course already. But what I’m afraid of is, to leave him behind. Alone.
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“Of course.” I told him even though I know I can’t keep that promise.

I hate myself for not having enough courage to tell everything. I don’t want him to get hurt. But I have to tell him right away.

“Don’t leave me okay. Lee Teuk is happy because of ELFs. But Jungsoo is happier because of you. Do you get what I mean?”

I turned my back and gave him a hug, a hug which I hope to last forever. But it seems like forever doesn’t exist anymore.

“Can I sleep with you tonight?” He asked me.

“Sure. “

I want to tell him everything. But I don’t want to mess up his vacation. So I’ve decided to keep it, for now.

We lie down and I asked him, “What are you thinking at this moment?”

“I keep on imagining that you and I will be together until our hair turns gray.”

“What are you trying to say?”

“That you are the woman I want to be with until the day I die.”

“……”

“What’s with the sudden silence, Neul Soo?”

“Are you..”

“Not really. If you’re trying to ask me if I’m courting you, NO I’M NOT. I mean, not yet.”

“Eh?”

“I’ll sleep now.”

“Hey, you didn’t even clear things up!”

“I’m tired, sweetie. I’ll sleep now.” Then he gave me a kiss on my left cheek.

That’s all I told him that night. I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to do. Jungsoo is someone special. I know I love him already, and I will love him until forever. But, this relationship will not work even if we do feel the same way. This will not last, I know.

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We went to our room. Jungsoo lie down on his bed and told me that he will just sleep for a while. I sat down beside him as watch him sleep. This man is really random. Sometimes he’s cute, sometimes irritating. I cannot understand him completely, actually.

“Neul Soo.”

“Eh?”

“Can you keep me a promise?”

“It depends.”

“I mean this; I want you to promise me this.”

“What’s that?”

“That you will NEVER leave me.”

“What do you mean?”

“Just promise me. Please?”

“Oh. Okay. But..”

“Okay I’ll go back to sleep now.”

I need to tell him something really important. But he didn’t allow me to finish. Now when will I be able to tell him the truth? Maybe sooner or later, that day will come. But I guess not now.

I surf the net, while waiting for him to wake up. Lunch time came and I’ve decided to wake him up.

“Oppa, its 12nn. Eebum just called and they’re waiting for us.”

He just stood up and washed his face.

“Let’s go.”

He moved fast, eh? I wonder.

“What’s wrong with you? Are you feeling well?”

“A bad dream. But I’m fine.”

“Okay. If you’re not feeling well, just tell me. I’m here for you, you know that.”

He stopped at the middle of the corridor, and he suddenly grabs me at my waist and hugged me. His arms around me, his face near mine, and I can feel how much he wants me to hug him back, and so I did. I was really shocked because out of nowhere, he did that. Good thing no one’s around.

“What’s the matter?”

“You promised me you won’t leave me, right? Please keep that promise.”

“Uh, okay.”

“Or else, you will never see me again.”

“What do you mean? Don’t say such words.”

“I mean it.”
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We arrived at the place with everyone waiting for us.

We ate. Joke around and it feels like everything in front of me is just a dream. The time flies so fast while seeing the boys having fun. They changed their clothes and decided to swim. Together with Eebum and HyeMin, we had a girls talk and something happened.

Ryeowook is not around and everyone is looking for him. He’s not answering everyone’s call and not even replying to the messages sent to him. Until Yesung said Wookie just answered.

“Yah! Ryeowook left a message just now. He said that he will just fetch someone and will be back for dinner. And he stated this. “I want you guys to meet someone. I’ll be back. Wait for me.”

Everyone got worried that time and after receiving the message, everyone went back to the pool and played.

From where I’m seated, I spot EunHae playing and chasing each other, at the pool. I adore their friendship. I can feel that this will last forever. Together with the remaining members and playing with them, I saw Jungsoo approaching us.

“You guys aren’t going to swim?”

“Maybe after dinner, oppa.” Eebum answered him.

The guys kept on joking around until Ryeowook came. The eternal magnae is coming together with a young pretty lady with him. I wonder if she’s a dongsaeng of Ryeowook.

“Hello, I’m back!” Ryeowook happily said to everyone.

“Yah! Who’s that girl with you?” Kangin asked him.

“Oh, this is Yeon Sung. A dear friend of mine.”

“Hello Yeon Sung dongsaeng. Is Ryeowook courting you?” Shindong asked.

“Hyung!!!!” Ryeowook exclaimed.

“Ayii, not actually. We’ve been hanging out together but he’s not courting me. It’s nice meeting everyone here.”

“Okay, stop flirting now. Ryeowook ah, I can see it in your eyes that you like her. Let’s talk about that later okay? Hyung will help you. Let’s go and eat now.” Kangin said.

I approached Yeon Sung and I can feel that she felt out of place that’s why I talked to her. She’s really cute and charming, and when she’s beside Ryeowook, they really look good together.

After eating, the 4 of us decided to swim with the kids. They’re really dorky and so we’ve decided to stay at the side where we can talk.

“Hey.” Jungsoo approached me from the back and I can feel his hands on my hips. I felt so weak that time and I actually thought of myself turning red.

“Yah! Why?”

“You guys are talking about gossips right? Girls love that!”

“It’s none of your business.”

Then everyone burst out laughing since it’s true. We’re actually talking about him, Kibum, Siwon and Ryeowook that time.

“Stop those nonsense stuffs. Come with me.” Then he grabbed me and forced me to come and play with them. I don’t like, really. But I saw Eebum talking to Kibum, Siwon joking around with my dear Hyemin and Wookie just gave Yeon Sung a drink. So I guess it’s fine if Jungsoo and I grab this moment to talk.

We talked, we played. I can see everyone having fun until midnight. 2am came and we have decided to sleep.

“Yah! It’s getting cold now! Let’s go up!” Heechul said.

I immediately took my towel and my robe and fixed my things.

“Come on, let’s go up. Just take your shower at the room.” Jungsoo said and he grabbed everything I’m holding. I was chilling that time when suddenly, I can feel his arms around my shoulders and he just smiled.

When we reached our room, I took a bath and so he did. I lie down at my bed and suddenly, it rains. It’s really raining hard and I can see how Jungsoo looks a bit scared, I guess.

I closed my eyes until unexpectedly he lie down beside me.

“Hey, what are you doing? Why don’t you go to your bed?”

“I’m scared of lighting and thunders. Can I sleep with you? Please.”

I burst out laughing because his face is like a child asking his mother to read a bed time story. His pouting lips, his twinkling eyes that you cannot resist.

“Okay. But I may slap or kick you while sleeping.”

“It’s fine. As long as it’s you hurting me, I have no problem with that.”

Then I smiled and closed my eyes again. I can feel his one hand at my waist, pulling me to go near him. I didn’t mind him doing that, maybe he’s just too scared. But after awhile, his other hand on my neck until it reached my nape and so I opened my eyes.

“What are you planning to do uh?”

“Will you get mad if I kiss you?”

“Why would I?”

Then I can feel his lips sealed with mine. That’s all I can remember before I go to sleep.

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Immediately, Eebum approached me. “You better go and look for him. I think he got jealous of Sungmin oppa.”

I’ve been looking for him all over the place. I don’t know where I can find him.

“Hi!” There’s a pretty girl who approached me.

“Hello.”

“You’re looking for what? Maybe I can help you.”

“Oh, have you seen Leeteuk? I mean, the leader of Super Junior?”

“Ah, yah. He went that way. There’s a small cottage there. Actually, only people who come here often know that place. I can come with you if you like.”

“Thank you.”

“By the way, my name is Hye Min. And you are?”

“I’m Neul Soo. I’m with Super Junior.”

“Oh. So you met Siwon already?”

“Yes of course. He’s really a gentleman.”

“I hope you don’t mind me telling this.”

“What’s that?”

“I’m his girlfriend.”

“Really? Since when have you been together?”

“4 months and counting~”

“That’s pretty cool!”

“So, are you and Jungsoo dating?”

“What?”

“You’re looking for him right? That means you’re worried. Because, I saw you guys awhile ago when you arrived here. I came here last night with Siwon’s family. And I saw Sungmin hugged you then suddenly, Jungsoo oppa left. Now tell me, who’s your man? Is it Jungsoo or Sungmin?”

“You saw us? Aish~”

“Yes. And I think there’s something going on. But, I’ll leave you now. There’s the cottage. I better leave you guys alone. Maybe we can talk later after lunch?”

“Oh, okay! Thank you Hye Min, and it’s nice meeting you.”

“You too. See you later!”

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“Can we talk?” I asked him.

He stood up and looked at me. “What do you want?”

“Hey, I came here to ask you why you leaved me there without even saying a simple word.”

“What do I need to tell you anyway?”

“Hey, you’re being nonsense. You’re really moody! I cannot understand you anymore!”

“YOU are the reason why I’m like this.”

“What have I done?”

“Since you came, I changed a lot.”

“What do you mean?”

He grabbed me and hugged me.
“Neul Soo, you are my all now. It’s as if I cannot do anything without you. I’ve been Leeteuk in front of several people, but those people do not know who the real Park Jungsoo is. Our fans know that I’m strong, and I never fail to stand up every time I fall. But they don’t know my weakness. And now I’m telling you this, YOU are my weakness. You are my life. You are the person whom I want to be with for the rest of my life. Can’t you understand that? My world revolves around you, and I can’t escape from this anymore. How come you’re being insensitive?”

“Hey.”

“Is that all you can say? Hey? Hey? Hey what?”

Then I cried. I cannot express what I feel. This is the only solution. Then he let go of me.

“Now why are you crying?” He wiped my tears and I felt like I’m going to burst out. I cannot control my feelings. I want to tell him I feel the same way, but I can’t.

“Hey, talk to me. Why are you crying?”

“I’m feeling guilty.”

“About?”

“This.”

He hugged me once more and told me. “Let’s stop this. I hate seeing you like this. I’m sorry for causing so much trouble.”

“Thank you, and I’m sorry.”

I hugged him back. That moment, I don’t want to let go. I want to keep him in my arms that way.

“Hey, let’s go back. I think they’re waiting for us.”

“Can we go to our room instead?”

“Why?”

“I just don’t want to see other people. Please? Are you willing to come with me?”

“Okay.”

He holds my hand, and I feel secured. I don’t want to let go of him. Can this last forever? I mean, is FOREVER for real?

Neul Soo, when will you be able to tell him you’re feeling the same way?

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I opened my eyes from a deep sleep. I saw myself lying on Jungsoo’s lap, he was holding my hand and so do I. I sat down, looked at him as he’s having a pretty sleep. I love staring at him every time he’s sleeping. Eventhough he’s moody, and always mad at me, I find him really sweet and nice. I hope that what we have now, will continue to grow for us to have a better relationship. He’s a friend now. That’s it.

“Neul Soo! You woke up! Come out now.” Eebum told me.

“Siwon oppa together with Heechul and Hangeng oppa is coming. The car broke down, really. That’s why they will fetch us and ask people to fix Kibum’s car. How’s your sleep?”

“Oh, thank God for that. I’m hungry now. My sleep is really awesome. How about you?”

“Good too. Yah, can we talk?”

“About?”

“We’re best friends right? I know there’s something going on between Jungsoo oppa and you. Tell me everything.”

“Aish. There’s none. We’ve been enemies and now friends. That’s it.”

“Hey, I know you. You cannot hide your feelings from me. Okay, I will tell you everything. Let’s have a seat there, where Kibum will not hear us.”

“I’m confused now. What are you talking about?”

“I woke up around 3am.”

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“Jungsoo oppa, how come you’re still awake?”

“Uh, it’s just that I can’t sleep. And your bestfriend snore so loud.”

“I know. But, I mean.. is there something bothering you?”

“She’s bothering me. Really. Your best friend.”

“You can tell me everything oppa. Maybe I can help you?”

“Your best friend is really different from the other girls I’ve met before. I mean, she’s really one of a kind. She’s the type of a girl whose charm is really irresistible. Once you get to know her, you cannot escape from her charisma.

“Just tell me what you really want to say. YOU LIKE HER, DON’T YOU?”

“YES. But, honestly I like our relationship now. FRIENDS.”

“So what do you mean? You’re not ready for a relationship?”

“Again, yes. I mean, you know I’m a celebrity, I have schedules and I mean A LOT. I don’t even have enough time to sleep, even to eat and so on. So what if, she becomes mine, I don’t like her to suffer a lot because I do not have time for her. I value time so much, and I don’t want to take the time that is supposed to be hers. You get what I mean?”

“I understand, but because of that you are willing to sacrifice what you really feel and as well as your happiness?”

“I’m in a state of confusion now. Hey, Eebum, promise me that you will help me with this. Please?”

“Of course oppa. Sshh. She’s moving. Maybe we should talk about this some other time?”

“Okay. Go back to sleep now. And thank you.”
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“You guys talked?” I asked Eebum.

“Yes. Now I need your reaction. And I need to know the truth.”

“What do you need to know? Just ask me and I promise to answer you honestly.”

“Do you like him?”

“He’s someone special.”

“You didn’t answer my question. DO YOU LIKE HIM?”

“YES. But, I think it’s impossible for the both of us to be US. Do you get me?”

“Yeah, but why?”

“Like what he told you, TIME will be the issue here.”

“But, can’t you see? If you guys keep on doing this, you’re just wasting the CHANCE that is given to both of you.

“You know I’m busy. You know he’s busy. We have our own stuffs to deal with. I’m happy we’re friends. That’s it.”

“But if given a chance, will you accept him?”

“What do you mean?”

“I mean, if he courted you. Does Jungsoo have a chance to hear your sweetest YES?”

“Hey. Stop it. Look, Kibum’s calling us. Look at your prince charming, he seemed to be happy! Let’s go there.”
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Eebum knows me more than I do. She can read minds, and she can actually feel what I feel. But that last question is still bothering me. WHAT IF it happened, will I be able to accept his proposal?

“Hey! How’s your sleep?” Jungsoo approached me.

“It’s actually good. And, by the way thank you.”

“You’re always welcome.”

“Hyung! The 3 of them are coming! I can see Hangeng hyung’s car already! Come here quickly!”

Together with Jungsoo, we went to the car and good thing the 3 of them arrived just in time. I can see how Kibum take care of my best friend. And I can see how Eebum looks really happy every time she’s with Kibum oppa.

“Neul Soo sshi, come on. Let’s go back to the hotel now.” Siwon approached me.

He opened the door and I went in. Jungsoo followed and whispered “Hey. Thank you.”

“For what? I’m the one who’s supposed to say that.”

“Thank you for accepting me. I mean, many people do not understand me. But I guess I’m lucky to have you here with me now.”

I just smiled. I don’t even know how to react. I don’t know what to do and I don’t know the proper words to say.

While on our way to the hotel I was staring outside when suddenly, he holds my hand. Kibum, Eebum and Heechul who’s sitting next to us stared on both Jungsoo and I, blankly. I don’t know how to react as well. I want to remove my hand from his, but he’s holding me tight.

“You guys better mind your own business. Stop looking. I can see you.” Jungsoo said.

Then they immediately look outside. I can see Heechul oppa whispering something to Hangeng oppa. I know he’s talking about us.
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When we reached the hotel, I can see everyone waiting for us.

“What happened to you guys? Tell me everything! Hyung, what have you done to our dear Neul Soo? Kibum, is Eebum okay? Hey you two, do you guys take care of my brothers? Huh? Heechul kept on asking.

Sungmin approached Kibum and Jungsoo at once. But something happened which I wasn’t expecting at all.

Sungmin hugged me and told me he’s really worried, that he kept on sending me messages and yet, he got no response.

“Oppa, there’s no signal. And, my phone died. My bat got empty.”

Then Jungsoo left. He didn’t even tell me where he’s going. Everyone was shocked seeing him mad AGAIN.

What’s wrong with him?

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“Hyung, that’s not what you think. I just want Neul Soo and Eebum to meet. That’s why. Eebum and I talked yesterday and she told me that it’s been a long time since both of them hang out together.” Kibum said.

“Yah! Why do you keep on explaining? Why do you need to be so defensive? Hah! Okay, bye! Both of you take good care of our guests, and be back for dinner.” Heechul said, and then both of them ran away.

Together with Eebum, Jungsoo and Kibum, we went to the car and suddenly Jungsoo talked to me. “Yah, where do you wanna go? Do you want to eat?“

“Anywhere and anything will do for the both of us, you and Kibum oppa should be the ones to decide what we’re going to do and where are we going.”

Then Jungsoo opened the car door for me, and then I can actually see Eebum and Kibum smiling at me. I went in and he followed. I wonder why he sat beside me; I was actually expecting Eebum to follow. But I just ignored him and I thought there’s a sudden change of air between me and this man.

“Kibum, where are we heading to first?”

“Hyung, let’s have a breakfast first then let’s go to the zoo.”

“TO THE ZOO?” Eebum and I asked.

“We’ve planned about this yesterday. Yah! Neul Soo! Stop complaining!”

“Yah! Why are you so mean to me? You’re always mad at me! Eebum asked too, but why are you treating me this way? What have I done, uh?”

He didn’t answer me. He just gave that smile, a smile where you can only see on a child’s face. He’s like a little boy looking for attention. I wonder why, but I punched him and gave a smile in return. Are we really in good terms now? I wonder.
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After having the breakfast in a small restaurant, the 4 of us went to the ZOO. I actually thought they’re just joking. It’s for real. We went in, and it’s really embarrassing seeing families, with little children with them having fun. It feels like we don’t belong here. This place is not for adults. Keke~

“Neul Soo! Come here! Look at this tiger.”

“Now what?”

“That’s what you look like when you’re mad at me.”

“AISH!”

“See! A tiger-like girl!”

“Yah, come here. Let’s look for your twin.” I grabbed his hands and told Eebum and Kibum that we’ll be back.

“HERE! Look at this gorilla! It’s like a Jungsoo the 2nd! Look at your face, and his face! Ohh. Really similar, very related! The eyes, the nose.. everything! Look at that!”

“YAH! You’re too much!” Then he started to stare at me with his eyebrows really similar to Siwon’s.

“No I’m not. I’m telling the truth! Look at the mirror!”

Then I ran away, and I can feel him chasing me. I was actually happy with him, I don’t know why my heart feels like it beats really fast every time he’s beyond my reach. It’s really weird how Jungsoo and I became like this since last night. I’m not expecting this to happen, actually. It’s just that, I cannot turn my back anymore, this is reality and I can feel there’s really something going on between the two of us.

“Eebum! Kibum oppa! Save me from Jungsoo!” I grabbed the two of them and hide at their back while Jungsoo is trying to catch me! He’s really like a child, playing and joking around.

“Yah! Neul Soo! You are mean! You little tiger!!!!”

“At least not like a gorilla like you!”

“Aish!!! Come here!”

“Yah!!! Both of you stop!” Kibum shouted. “Both of you were like kids! Hah! And I think both of you are really enjoying the zoo ambiance. Keke~”

“Neul Soo, stop grabbing me! My ice cream will mess up my shirt if you keep on doing that! Jungsoo oppa, stop chasing her! Keke~” Eebum told the both of us.

“Aish! Eebum, look at you! You actually messed up your shirt! Let me help you clean that up! Come with me and let the two of them play there. Hah!” Kibum told my bestfriend, and he sounds so sweet!

Jungsoo and I end up joking around all day. I never imagined this to happen. It’s actually like a miracle.

“Hyung, let’s go home now. Its 6pm already and dinner will be set at around 7:30. I think we’ll be there just in time.”

“Okay. Let’s go back to the hotel now.”

When on our way to the hotel, the car suddenly stopped. I wonder what’s wrong.

“Yah! What happened, Kibum ah?”

“It just stopped hyung. Let’s go check it out.”

Both of them went down the car while Eebum and I are talking inside the car. Kibum opened the door and said, “There’s a big trouble. There’s a complication at the machine itself. We don’t know what to do now. There’s no one around here, and there’s no cell phone signal!”

“Then what are we going to do now?” I asked him with confusion.

“I think we need to wait for the sunrise.”

“WHAT? HERE?”

“We have no choice. Looks like this place is not a popular place that’s why there’s no one around.” Jungsoo explained.

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Now I’m scared. But atleast Kibum and Jungsoo are here. I can see Kibum staring at Eebum while sleeping. I just pretended that I didn’t see him when he looked at me.

“Yah! I know you saw me, Neul Soo.”

“You like her, don’t you oppa?”

“Honestly, yeah. Your bestfriend is really pretty and awesome. She’s really sweet and caring at the same time.”

“I know. She’s the best person I’ve ever met. So don’t you dare hurt her! Or else I’ll kill you.”

“You sound so scary, you know. Keke~ But yeah, I promise I won’t.”

“I’ll sleep now, oppa. Let’s talk about this tomorrow?”

“Okay then. Sure.”

We waited for hours and hours to pass. It’s really boring and it’s getting cold. I don’t have any jacket with me. Until suddenly, I can feel someone’s hands holding mine.

“I know you’re cold. Just, let me do this. This will make you feel a bit warmer. Here, wear my sweater as well.” Jungsoo took of his sweater and put it at my back. He was really holding my hands so tight and really, it makes me feel a bit better. He grabbed my head and forced me to sleep on his shoulder. I’m not sure what I really feel. It feels so different.

“Just sleep for now, for I will never leave you.” Those were the words I heard before I fell asleep.

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JUNGSOO’S POV

I guess she didn’t understand what I’m trying to tell her awhile ago. She’s really a slow thinker. And thank God for Kibum, he saved me.

“Hyung, we’ve been looking for you!”

“We just talked.” I told him pointing at Neul Soo.

“Looks like you guys have something to talk about? I should go upstairs now. And it’s quite late already. Oppa, I’ll go ahead, okay? I’ll just wait for you in our room.” Then she left.

“Yah! Okay then. I’ll be there soon.” I shouted. Then she just gave me the smile I’m longing for.

“Hyung, I want you to meet someone.”

“Eh?”

“Aisssh. She’s the girl I’m talking about, the best friend of Neul Soo. What do you think? Let’s go out tomorrow! My ride!”

“What do you mean? Just the 4 of us?”

“Yah. I asked Siwon hyung if it’s fine with him to invite another guest. And he said yes. So please, come with us?”

“You little kid, you’re way too fast! You just met her awhile ago.”

“I’m not like you, hyung. You’re way too slow! But, looks like you guys are doing well now, I guess?”

“Yeah. Actually I told her everything awhile ago. But since she’s a slow thinker girl, I think she didn’t get what I mean. So that’s absolutely great.”

Then suddenly my phone rang, it’s Kangin.

“Hyung! Where are you? Actually, we’re planning to swim, but since it’s late already, let’s save that activity for tomorrow okay? Are you with Neul Soo and Kibum? They left since you did a dramatic scene awhile ago. Hyung!!! You like her, don’t you? I knew it! I should tell the other guys now!”

“YAH!!! GO TO SLEEP! You keep your lips sealed or else!!!”

“What?”

“Good night!” Then I hung up.

“Hyung, let’s go to our rooms now. I’m really tired. And, please inform Neul Soo about this okay? I’ll fetch Eebum around 8am, so after lunch, let’s go somewhere else okay?”

“Okay.”

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As I entered our room, I saw her on bed already. She looks really tired and sleepy.

“Oppa, can I sleep now? I’ll go ahead okay? I’m really tired.”

“Okay. But, Kibum said he invited Eebum to come here tomorrow. And, he will fetch her by 8am. Then Kibum also told me to inform you that tomorrow after lunch, the 4 of us will hang out somewhere else. And I guess we’ll be back by dinner.”

“Really? Okay! Good night and, thank you.”

“Thank you for?”

“Today. I mean, aish. Never mind. Okay, good night again.”

Then she closed her eyes. She’s like a kid. She’s really cute and I find her really awesome. I should go to bed now. Tomorrow will be an exciting and tiring day. I wish I have the guts like Kibum. He’s really fast!

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“Hyung! Wake up!!!” Kibum is shouting at me while having a pretty sleep.

“What do you think I should give Eebum? Chocolates will work right? Hyung!!! Wake up please? I need your help!”

“Yah!!! It’s 6am!!! What do you want!? Stop shouting, Neul Soo is still sleeping!”

“Hyung, she’s already up! We talked already and she’s actually downstairs!”

“Eh? Really?”

“Yes! That’s why you need to wake up now.”

“Aish!! What do you want? I’ll sleep more! Go ahead and fetch her!!! Go now! Chocolates will do! Now go!!”

“Yah!!!!! I can’t believe you’re doing this to me!!! When we arrive here later and you’re still on bed, we will leave you. I’ll grab Neul Soo with us and I won’t tell anyone where we’re going so that you cannot follow! I’ll go ahead now. Bye!”

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“Oppa!!! Oppa!!!” I can hear Neul Soo’s voice. I opened my eyes; it’s her waking me up. Her lovely smile is the first thing I saw that moment.

“It’s 9am already, you better get ready. Eebum just called me, and they’re on their way here.”

“Okay.” Then I stood up, took a shower and get dressed.

Someone is knocking on the door, so while fixing my hair, Neul Soo opened it. It’s Kibum, with his girl. So I immediately finished what I’m doing and went out the bathroom.

“Yah! Hyung! This is Eebum. Neul Soo’s bestfriend.”

Then I saw how Eebum and Neul Soo hugged each other. They’re really cute and close. Their smiles on their faces are really precious and priceless. Both of them are really excited.

“Hello Eebum sshi. It’s Jungsoo oppa. Nice to meet you.”

“Hello oppa! Nice meeting you too.”

Then I can hear noises from the outside. I opened the door only to find out Heechul and Kangin.

“Hyung! Kibum! Where are you going eh? Ah!!! On a date!? How come you didn’t inform us about this?” Kangin said.

“DATE?” Neul Soo and Eebum asked with confusion on their faces.

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NEUL SOO’s POV

After eating, Heechul oppa suggested a small, but fun game.

“I have our names here in a small piece of paper. All you have to do is pick a paper and open it, then let everyone see who’s name is in it. Then you have to complete the phrase I HATE YOU FOR… Do you guys get what I mean? But the thing here is, the person chosen cannot complain or explain his/ her side. Whether it may be a joke or something real. Those people just have to accept the I HATE YOU FOR given to that person.” Heechul explained. That’s kinda easy, I thought.

KI: Let’s just do it clockwise or counter clockwise. Is that okay? Okay let’s start the game. SUNGMIN, I HATE YOU FOR LOVING PINK SO MUCH. It’s just that, it’s not for a man to act like a kid and buy everything pink.

SM: Kyu, I hate you for snoring so loud at night. Stop it, most of the time I can’t sleep.

KH: Donghae hyung, I hate seeing you going out with Hyukjae hyung. You’re mine.

Then everyone burst out laughing. Then we continued the game with Donghae.

DH: Hyukjae, I hate you for giving strawberry milk to Neul Soo. Give it to me instead. Stop making me jealous.

EH: Jungsoo hyung, I hate you for hiding what you feel. We are your dongsaengs. Looks like something’s bothering you these past few weeks.

Then we stopped. Jungsoo just bowed his head and continue.

LT: Neul Soo, I hate you for making me feel this way.

Then he stood up and left the circle. Everyone end up looking at me. Maybe they’re expecting me to react or at least say something about that. Honestly, I was shocked too. I don’t know how to react; I don’t know what are the right words to say.

I stood up, excused myself from the group and ran away. I don’t understand this feeling I have now; it’s feels like my heart is going to explode. I don’t know why I feel this way when he told me those simple words.

I went straight to our room thinking that it’s the right place where I can think and reflect. But as I opened the door, I saw Jungsoo lying on his bed with tears. I don’t know what to do!

You can do this, Neul Soo. Talk to him.

“Oppa, can we talk?” I asked him bravely.

“What do you want from me? Isn’t this enough?”

“I don’t understand you. Why are you acting like this?”

He sat down, grabbed my hand and told me, “You are the person who makes my world go round. I cannot do this anymore. My pride is eating me, I cannot stand this. This is not the real Park Jungsoo, but from the moment I saw you, I felt something different. Something not right, but I want to make it right. Do you get what I mean?”

“Oppa, slow down. You know I’m not good at this. I do not understand you completely.”

“Let’s stop fighting. Let’s start from the top. I mean, let’s be friends?”

“Eh?”

“Aish! Don’t make me get mad again!!!! Let’s be friends. Let’s stop bashing and stuffs. Can we do that? Isn’t that simple?”

“Uh. Okay.”

“Yah!!! Why don’t you say something?”

“I said okay!”

“Fine.”

Then he let go of me.

“Oppa, let’s go back at the pool side. Maybe they’re worrying now.”

“I’ll just leave them a message. Let’s have a walk first so that at the same time, we can talk.”

“Where are we going then?”

“Aish. Just come with me. Let’s go.”

He grabbed me again and we went out.

“Yah! How old are you?”

“I’m 3 years younger than you.”

“So you’re telling me I’m old?”

“Nah. I just answered your question. What’s wrong with that?”

“Nothing. Can I ask you a question? Just tell me the truth okay? No lies.”

“Okay. But I have a question too. And you should tell me the truth as well.”

“Okay then. Uh, Do you hate me for treating you so bad?”

“Who wouldn’t? You’re really weird. I hate you so much, like I want to put you in a box and just throw you away at the lake. I want you to disappear like a bubble! Hah! Now it’s my turn. Regarding your statements in YYMM, do you really think I’m pretty and caring? Tell me the truth oppa!!!!”

Then he just gave me the most beautiful stare I ever saw. He didn’t even say a single word.

“Hyung!!” It’s Kibum oppa coming.

“Yah! Why are you here?” Jungsoo answered him like he was avoiding answering my question. Kibum’s fault.

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